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Hey hey hey!

First of all I would like to thank whoever voted for my entry in the Chrysalis contest! I got as many votes as my deviantName states, which really really made me so proud! I couldn't believe it when I woke up to see it in the 100s. But, I have resigned from the contest, as there was a second round of voting, with another entry that was completely amazing and I think it deserves to win anyway. All the entries deserved so much more recognition. When I first saw them, I said "Well, there goes my chances of winning, these are outstanding!" I felt like I'd actually achieved something in art, my biggest animation ever, but it seems like it turned out to be a full on rivalry and I felt as if the whole thing was slightly one sided. I just know I'll never amount to the skill of the winning artist. XD I saw some comments somewhere which kinda upset me, which didn't help, but I think if I'm going to moan about that I might as well give up. So, again thanks to all who supported me! You made me feel as if my art was worth something!


But winning isn't everything and I am very happy with how many people thought my work was worth winning.

:hug: For those who voted, you're all so great! Thank you!
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I have 2 more commission slots open in the New Years Sale.  
I'm only in school part of the week, so I have some free time then!

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I also wanted to mention that now I've got a job, the day before going and the hours before getting there, I feel so sick and anxious, it's the only thing I can think about. And this feeling is soooo awful. But once I'm there I'm not so bad. Although it's just one day a week, it really gets to me. I think it's the whole fact that I don't want to let anyone down. Already I feel like packing up and leaving, but I feel as if that's something I'll come to regret. This is my first job.

Yesterday I was told that I will soon have to start maintaining the whole shop myself at closing time. And even with a teammate I find it really difficult, there's so much to it and I, having an awful memory, can barely remember how to do things right. I do think I have anxiety though. But people just say I'm over reacting. Is there any tips on dealing with these horrid feelings?

Do you think I should ask for a tick-list, so I know what to do and don't miss anything?

Or do you think I should search for another job and quit?

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A lot of the feelings you describe I can relate to very easily.  Well not so much having bad memory, but I do hate if I end up antagonising anybody if they're let down or otherwise.  I can only say to grin and bear it, things eventually get better.